Building 45

Literary/Arts Journal

I am from: a Game I Don't Want to Play

by Nikki Lynn

I am from . . .
PTSD, depression, and anxiety
Chronic pain and fatigue is my game
I become the manic maniac

I am from . . .
The ups, the downs
The ins and the outs
I become an outcast

I am from . . .
So so sad, so so mad, and so so glad
I circle around and start over again
I've become so so wracked

I am from . . .
An agoraphobic life
I poke my head out erelong
I become panicked and breathless

I am from . . .
Hiding so I won't get hurt again
They can't touch me if they can't reach me
I become ghostly, ever invisible